Tuesday, June 28, 2022

For heavy hearts ~ Summer on the mountain...


EVERYTHING is just so much right now!  So many are wounded.  Hearts are aching.  In ways varied and heinous.  More will suffer before we can put things right.  I have no wand to make it better today.  Perhaps the words of a poet and the beauty Mother Nature affords me daily will provide a small solace.

HUMMINGBIRD for Tess ~

Suppose I say summer

write the word "hummingbird,"

put it in an envelope,

take it down the hill

to the box.  When you open

my letter you will recall

those days and how much,

just how much, I love you.

                            ~ Raymond Carter



























Wishing a moment of peace, hummingbirds, love and summer for each of you. ~ les

Thursday, June 16, 2022

Sew Chaotically! ~ A Summer Jamboree with more scrap busting!!!


Boy be growing!!!!  So it was time for some summer fits!  No new fabric was purchased....just scraps from prior projects were used.  At times, creative piecing was required, but it all worked out.

Front view of Brindille and Twig's Spring Romper (105).  This pattern provides a rather ingenious method for creating REAL pockets and a lined bodice!!  I will definitely be making more of these!!!  As it goes up to size 6T, the Jammer will definitely have a good set when he can really use his pockets!  The top is Brindille and Twig's Lap Neck Tee (19)

Back view.

In making the Romper, I realized that I could easily use the pattern to make cute shorts as well.  So, with some itty bitty scraps - I did!!!

Back view.
More scraps (The back of the grey version is three pieces!!!)
 were used to create these seriously hacked versions of the gathered neck romper based on S8894. 

Back view.
A funky Shwin & Shwin, Baby Ringer Onesie
 An easy and  FREE pattern!
Another version from S8894.  My biggest change was to make the top buttons fixed and add a snap crotch.

And finally, for when he's a bigger boy, made from a very scrumptious knit I used making a maternity dress for his Momma - another S8894.  This one made as directed, with working buttons at the shoulder and a 'pant like' bottom.

Fun makes ready for a Jamboree!  Thanks for putting in all the snaps, B!  Sewing Chaotically, with scraps and love! ~ les

Monday, June 13, 2022

Sew Chaotically! ~ Sustainable creating with FabScrap!

In early spring I completed one of two special tops that have been in the planning stages for a LOOOOOONG time!  First up is this one.  

The fabric, a lovely shirting embroidered with a thin pin stripe that I was sadly unable to capture in the pictures as well as a silk crepe (???), came in a "naturals yard pack, cool" from FabScrap Online Shop back in 2020!  The minute I saw the pieces I knew I wanted to make some sort of top, using the silk for the sleeves.  When I discovered McCalls 8039, I knew it could be used to bring the nebulous blouse I imagined to life.  I used the sleeves from View B and closure from view A.

It was a fun challenge to work with what I had to create what I envisioned.  I had just enough fabric for the pieces!  The silk was not what the pattern really called for, but I got creative using the pattern's lantern sleeve as a base and figuring out ways to use interfacing and stitching to get the shape I wanted.  I would be hard pressed to explain exactly what I did!  But...

I'm really tickled with how it turned out, especially since they hold their shape but are super soft and pliable with wearing!

Despite the drama and bit of frivolity this top incorporates, I am looking forward to using it for dressy occasions as well as more everyday wear with jeans.   

Check out FabScrap if you are interested in sustainable fabric choices.  They pick up bits and bobs left over from designers and manufactures - stuff that before their efforts often ended up in landfills. They have brick and mortar warehouses in Brooklyn and Philly if you are interested in becoming a volunteer or have the opportunity to shop in person.  If that's not possible, you can always support the cause and pick up great fabric online!  I've use that option three times and have been very happy with the material I acquired!

May you find ways to create the world we all want to see.  Sew chaotically! ~ les

Friday, June 10, 2022

May Reads


Hamnet - Maggie O'Farrell.  Historical fiction, telling Shakespeare's story leading up to the writing of Hamlet.  The following passages hit incredibly close to the bone...

"...He carried with him, always, the sensation of his father's calloused hand enclosing the soft skin of his upper arm, the inescapable grip that kept him there so his father could rain down blows with his other, stronger hand.  The shock of a slap landing, sudden and sharp, from above; the flensing sting of a wooden instrument on the back of the legs.  How hard were the bones in the hand of an adult, how tender and soft the flesh of a child, how easy to bend and strain those young unfinished bones.  The doused, drenched feeling of fury, of impotent humiliation, in the long minutes of a beating.

His father's rages arrived from nowhere, like a gale, then blew quickly on.  There was no pattern, no warning, no rationale; it was never the same thing twice that tipped him over.  The son learnt, at a young age, to sense the onset of these eruptions and a series of feints and dodges to avoid his father's fists.  As an astronomer reads the minuscule shifts and alterations in the alignment of the planets and spheres, to see what lies in store, this eldest son became an expert in reading his father's moods and expressions.  He could tell, from the sound the front door made when his father entered from the street, from the rhythm of his footsteps on the flagstones, whether or not he was in for a beating."

"...He is, he prides himself, adept at dissembling, at reading the thoughts of others, at guessing which way they will jump, what they will do next.  Life with a quick tempered parent will hone these skills at an early age...."

Very few changes would be needed to make that story one I experienced and observed.  Damn.  At any rate - while Shakespeare's life and experiences are the bones of the story - the heart is built on the history, daily life and experiences as a mother, of his wife, Anne Hathaway.  I was incredibly touched by her strength, free spirit and depth of maternal love.  Highly, highly recommend.

Bark - Lorrie Moore.  This volume of short stories had been recommended by multiple sources.  Chose to try it as Hamnet was so powerful that I wanted something rather small and light.   Sorry.  Not a fan.  I didn't like a single character in this collection; always a problem for me.  Almost didn't finish it - but I did!  

INTRO to Marie Benedict's (aka Heather Terrell) work:   First and foremost, though her books tend to be a bit contrived and juvenile in presentation, wordy with a penchant to use "frisson" far too often, I have been most pleased to find them.  The women she writes of have certainly not been given their due in so many ways.  It was interesting to do a bit a of research on each woman and her life independent of these books - which - in one interview - was exactly what Ms. Benedict said she most wanted her writing to achieve.

The Mystery of Mrs. Christie - Marie Benedict.  Having read several biographies of Agatha Christie, there were no astonishing revelations in this one, though the premise of a letter left to her husband, found by him after she vanished, and the unraveling of both her mysterious disappearance and her husband's affair told through his eyes was fun to entertain.

Lady Clementine - Marie Benedict. Perhaps the best written of the lot, I learned a great deal about Churchill and his wife, Clemmie, that I did not know or had never really thought through.  Most impressive were her efforts on behalf of women in particular and Britons generally, during the war.  Their relationship. at least in this telling, was more mutually respectful and appreciative than some of the others of which she wrote.  In addition to reading about Churchill and his wife, I was led to watch Darkest Hour.  While good, it was disappointing how little light it shed on Clementine especially given who she was, the role she played in Churchill's life, and the fact that Kristin Scott Thomas was playing her!!!  Oh well.  You can't have everything.

Carnegie's Maid - Marie Benedict.  Despite the Carnegie name being associated with everything from innumerable libraries, colleges, the discovery of insulin, the dismantling of nuclear weapons and even Sesame Street - I knew little about the man.  An immigrant from Scotland, Andrew Carnegie, was one impressive dude. Brilliant and at times ruthless in his business ventures (telegraph, railroads, steel, bridges) he was an incredible and dedicated philanthropist.  Often directed toward education and libraries. he gave away 90% of his incredible wealth in his lifetime and at his death additional funds were dispersed to individuals, charities and various foundations.  At the age of 33 he wrote, 

"... The amassing of wealth is one of the worst species of idolatry. No idol more debasing than the worship of money."  In order to avoid degrading himself, he wrote in the same memo he would retire at age 35 to pursue the practice of philanthropic giving for "... the man who dies thus rich dies disgraced." 

The book is based on a premise that a relationship and unrequited love for his mother's maid led to this mantra; a possible but unlikely scenario?  Either way, it was used to good effect as a vehicle to tell the story of this complicated and generous man and is the only book that does not feature a woman known to actually exist.

The Other Einstein - Marie Benedict.  The story of Einstein's first wife and brilliant physicist, Mitza Maric.  Soooo - spoiler alert ~  Einstein was an ASSHOLE!!!!!!!!!!  Damn!  They had a daughter together - prior to their marriage - who was either put up for adoption or lost to scarlet fever.  (Further reading seems to favor the later.)  An entire experience that Albert was insensitive to at best.  Marriage did eventually follow along with the birth of two sons.  Despite her assistance with a great deal of his work, through his direct manipulation, Mitza's name was never credited on any of Albert's publications or in connection with any of his other recognitions.  I guess you could say she got the last laugh as his Nobel Prize money was placed in trust, and later in property, to provide income for her and their sons, one of whom required institutionalized care due to schizophrenia, after he left her for his cousin.  That would be his first cousin on his mother's side and second cousin on his father's!  Yes, one of the equations Mitza helped him develop is required to figure that one out! What the tub???!!!!

The Personal Librarian - Marie Benedict and Victoria Christopher Murray.  Perhaps the most tediously written of the group, describes the life of Bella da Costa Greene, who was JP Morgan's personal librarian from 1905, continuing even after his death in that role, working for his son until 1948.  She was a black woman 'passing' for white in a man's world.  I can't even imagine how it felt to face the challenges or the choices she made.  As glad as I am to know of Ms. Greene, the book itself is a bland shadow compared to Passing by Nella Larsen.  Then again, I don't think its authors were trying to reach those heights.  

Her Hidden Genius - Marie Benedict.  The story of Rosalind Franklin who, through her use of crystalline X-ray techniques, led to the understanding of the helix formation of DNA.  Sexism, underhanded stealing, and her death from ovarian cancer, likely caused or at least exacerbated by her excessive exposure to radiation at the age of 38, precluded her being awarded the Nobel Prize for that discovery, which was instead awarded to Watson and Crick in 1962.  She also worked on unraveling the mystery of RNA, learning things that enabled Doudna and Charpentier to attain the Nobel prize in 2020 for their work on CRISPR genome editing technology - paving their way as a researcher on the subject and woman in the field.  Sadly, this book may have been the most poorly written of the series, standing in sad relief when compared to The Code Breaker by Walter Isaacson.

The Aviator's Wife - Melanie Benjamin.  Another spoiler alert!  Ready?  Charles Lindberg was an ASSHOLE!!!  Much like, Einstein, he never gave ample credit to his wife Anne Morrow Lindberg who, though they met and married after his historic transatlantic flight, was his copilot and cowriter for many years.  He was a cold man who never seemed to really appreciate his children or wife, or the toll exacted on Anne after the abduction and murder of their first child, and was a Nazi sympathizer to boot!  If that wasn't enough, turns out he had three additional families through three women in Germany (two of whom were sisters!!!!) and a total of 7 children with those women from 1958 to 1967 in addition to the 6 he had with Anne.  Additional reading indicates that DNA testing demonstrated that those 7 were indeed his.  The children he had with Anne became aware of their existence after his and her death.  The book presumes that Anne learned of those "families" through letters he did actually write to the women imploring them to keep his secret even after his death, upon his death bed.  My reading indicates that finding the letters led to the aforementioned DNA testing and those children reaching out to their American siblings.  Hmmm....  Benjamin has written her story in a style and manner similar to those by Benedict - but it is worth reading.

When Crickets Cry - Charles Martin.  Though utterly predictable and more than a little romanticized (from someone who is a pediatric medical person) and not as good as Unwritten - Martin has a way of holding your attention.

Little Fires Everywhere - Celeste Ng.  I couldn't have read this at a more pivotal time.  Abortion, adoption (from both sides - those who wish to adopt and those who for myriad reasons are compelled to give their baby up), socioeconomic/class distinctions, race, cultural issues, raising children who are and aren't of your ethnicity, surrogacy -  motherhood in all its forms - it's here. Heart rending issues. Fairly well addressed - making one think.  Not sure the book lived up to all its hype - but that's not really the fault of the book nor the author.  If these issues of motherhood interest you - one of the more recent pod casts by Haptic and Hue - Fabric and Foundlings is definitely worth a listen as it addresses babies left, most often, by mothers who could not afford to feed and care for them, but were not lacking in love.  Because the foundling hospital - begun by a sea captain who wanted to improve the lives of those women and the children they could not keep, as a safe place, with accommodations to care for feed the children who previously were being left on the streets of 1720's London, required anonymity - most babies were left with bits of cloth attached to their blankets, which the mother could later describe and often had a matching piece of, so that should her plight improve, she could return and reclaim her child.  Records of these bits of cloth as well as the clothing the children were left in were meticulously kept.  This anonymous poem was left with one child ~

Hard is my Lot in Deep Distress

To Have No Help where most should find.

Sure nature meant her sacred laws

Should men as strong as women bind.

Regardless he, Unable I,

To keep this image of my heart.

‘Tis Vile to Murder! Hard to Starve,

And death almost to me to part.

If fortune should her favours give

That I in better plight might live

I’d try to have my boy again

And train him up the best of men.


I didn't plan to read predominantly of women and motherhood this month - but it seems I did and it was good.  "Sure nature meant her sacred laws should men as strong as women bind."  That says so much as we face determinations by the Supreme Court regarding women's health - having been placed in circumstances women did not - could not - attain alone.

Read chaotically!  - les

Saturday, June 4, 2022

Healing nature...

When feeling broken from all the horror that man can inflict - with cruelties large and small  - what a blessing the healing of nature can be.  You know it's June and Fred-o time when the flame azaleas blossom.


While the delicate blush of spring has gone - her fresh exuberance remains...








My hostas have been incredible....


Until they, along with EVERY bud from EVERY sort of hydrangea and day lily, along with all the foliage from every strawberry and wild geranium, were decidedly nipped!!!!



Hmmm....  I think I've discovered the culprit!


But, wait!!!! 

She is not alone!




Spied next day...  "I'm being good and staying put, just like you said, Mom!!!"  NOT!!!

The demesne is only mine to look after for the moment.  It would be the height of hubris to think she belongs only to me.

I watch the robins and thrashers toss leaves like an old lady looking through her purse. Chipmunks squeak their alarms while squirrels fuss and chase each other among the trees. Bluebirds, chickadees, titmice, wrens and cardinals flit; pileated woodpeckers and towhees call. The occasional hawk swoops down.  And I?  I wish you a moment to breathe in the beauty. May it heal the pain in your soul. ~ les